The first and the foremost thing. There’s nothing in this world as pure as a Father-Daughter relationship.
And The girl without a father -Me.
Growing up without a father is rough. Its tough. Your absence have made a void that none can ever fill in my life. You took away the colours of my life with you. Experiencing a life without you creates unearth pain in my heart and the pain that i have to hide from the entire world. Everyday.
I’m always afraid of abandonment and rejections.
Because you are not here with me to handle me and take care of me during the times i meet failure in my life.
I’m afraid of falling in love baba, nowadays I have got a mindset of avoiding romantic enlargement.I fear of getting hurt again. And i cannot bear that pain anymore.
You are not here with me. To support me. To give me a sholder to cry when i need it.
Baba,Nowadays I’m afraid of revealing myself to the world outside. What if,they get me wrong. And i cannot handle the situation alone.
You are not here with me to support me and have scoopes of icecream with me at 2 am in our roof top and gently makkng me realise what’s wrong and what’s right for me. Where to open up and where to not. Whom to trust and whom to not.
Was there really any valid reason to leave me into this complex world this early and just escape like the superman-that you were to me?
I’m derived of the love and care that I used to receive from my father for the whole life time. I got deprived of the reason why I wake up everyday.
Noone will ever understand me.
Noone will ever care for me.
Noone will ever protect me.
—the way you used to.
Nonetheless, you made me stronger. You made me your brave daughter who is enough to fight her own battle. Who can handle herself through the tough times life puts her into. You made me a complete person who can raise her up after she has fallen down repeatedly. The one who never gives up. The one who has the guts to point out wrong and the stubborn to stand at her ground. -Just the soldier that you wanted to brought up.
At the end of the day I miss you a lot Baba.
Can you take me to the place where you are now?
-Yours and only yours,